If only you could see me now

If only you could see me now
You'd never recognize me
I can laugh again
And smile at nothing
They call me crazy
But in a good way
You'd never guess
That this is who I am
But it's not
It's all a lie
A show I'm putting on
I just want to be left alone
No more phone calls
No more troubles for my heart
That'll never happen
The act must continue